@op
dude...women are nothing special and, at best, average in bed...most of them age like fruit and so do most relationships...there is no such thing as a "special" woman...you will get bored after fucking it for 5 years no matter how hot she is...you will not find hapiness in kids or family because most kids are idiots and most fat wives suck balls...
the best you can do in life is to not be such a door mat who puts women on a pedestal, like its some sacred object...treat them like sneakers...you put sneakers on your feet and women on your dick...
make money, get pussy, move on to next pussy