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Due to his reconversion into Christianity, he began second-guessing his career in pornography. He was offered a new, very lucrative contract by Playboy. At first he intended to accept the offer, believing that his Christian faith and a porn career were compatible. However, after what he claims to be an intervention by God, he decided that he could no longer stay in the industry.
“Two weeks after I stopped producing porn was when I actually surrendered my life to God,” Pauling recalls. “So that’s exactly what I did. I had that prayer right in my car. And I surrendered my life to Him, I asked Him to take control, I asked Him to forgive me of everything I’d done. It didn’t mean it was easy though. It’s not like I surrendered my life to God and everything turned rosy. I was at peace, the most peace I’d ever had in my life. But I was also in a hugely painful emotional state. But it was so peaceful at the same time. It felt kind of like detox.”
Soon after he partially reconciled with his wife, although they remain divorced. Quitting the industry, he suddenly had much less income. However the family received large donations from various Christian charities and Pauling has stated that all his hatred of Christianity melted then.
He has lamented at the number of women he had previously recruited or worked with who have since contacted him depicting their regret and shame at having done porn.
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