A man's life is rightfully his to do that which he wishes, within realistic physical constraints of course. And it is his right also to dictate the terms of his exit, rather than have them proscribed by external factors or entities.
Having said such, that step into eternal silence and the blackest of darkness is one that all of us will inevitably take it one day... whether we're ready for it or not.
Indeed, that is after all one booking none of us need not fear missing.
But... once you board that train, there ain't no coming back. Ever.
Don't be in any rush to jump aboard that train.
Jay, I don't even know you. Years ago you helped me add some galleries to one of your sites. Something I barely remember and I'm sure you don't at all.
But you seem like a cool guy, when you ain't acting like an asshole that is
Hang in there man, and don't let the ghouls get you down.