much love kiddo from one human to another but this is what matters:
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Originally Posted by xxxjay
Fact is, I have two speeds I am either completely sober or I drink one beer and then I will keep drinking till I blackout.
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you're admitting that you can't handle substances. that is awesome.
so fucking stop
the rest is noise, excuses, reasons.....
just fucking stop and start fresh.
it won't be easy, when I wrote about rewiring your brain that wasn't a metaphor.
this won't be easy, but you have two choices; easy road that leads to more of the misery you know will kill you, or a really hard road to something new that can save your life, wherein you can carve something that really means something beyond the next high. we get one go around, you know you can do better than this.
being real everything you write is textbook addict, like there's something cool or valiant about destroying yourself? there is nothing admirable about what you've been experiencing.
serves no one, not you and certainly not those who love you. again, just being real.
if you take nothing else from this: fall out of love with your own self-pity
and start fucking fighting for what both you and your peeps deserve
I don't consider weed to be a drug per se but if you're trying to get clean at the very least use it sparingly. the whole point is to be able to engage as a happy, vibrant, productive, loving person in this world right? can't do that if you need ish to get fucked up to get through the day
you clearly have the intelligence to do this, so make the choice.
hope you choose the right one.