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^^those expressions are so delightfully contemptible, how can you not love it
beautiful little ones and thanks for posting those pics. I'm sorry for your losses sincerely but hope at some point you let another one in
I grew up surrounded by cats, my first was born on the exact same day as me (my parents took in a pregnant stray girl) and cleaved to me after her mom died shortly thereafter. the two other babies were adopted out to responsible people (aka my aunt and uncle who share our affliction for all things feline), but Grimmy made it clear she was staying with me.
I don't think a baby pic of me exists without Grims in it. when she got old, me and my dad built her stairs so she could still reach my bed. she was my girl
hope I did her justice being her person after her mom was gone. think I did
inherited cat-love from both my parents, had a menagerie growing up (snakes, newts, turtles, skink, rabbit, dog) but cats from the beginning spoke my language. same with my parents, they have always loved and rescued strays and actually chose a home within which to retire (NOT a retirement home-my people won't go through that) to accommodate their own 5 current cats, all rescues.
found out tonight, two weeks before my babies are due to travel to reunite with me in JA, that my oldest cat is in kidney failure and has days/weeks to live. there is no 'managing' this, he's in palliative care state right now. My mom had a very beloved cat with the same diagnosis but he lived comfortably and happily for two years after that with shots once a day to help maintain hydration, etc.
no maintaining here
I knew for several days he was sick, just was waiting to hear from my mom and the vet as to what the fuck was going on as two weeks ago he was fine.
so now instead of greeting him here in JA after such a long wait, I get to go back to CA to be with him for a dignified death.
I'm so sad but feel very lucky for all my dapper tuxedo boy brought to my life.
being real though it's such pain
Supposed to be working tonight but crying it out with some cardio so I don't worry my mom when I fly to her place. Get it out/push it down ninja combo
Actually booked into a hotel as I never close my doors or windows at home and needed to cry without people bothering me with 'are you ok' crap. uh, no, if I am crying I am not ok, if I wished to share I would
May hit the pool here later, most likely will just browse his pics and blaze, listen to music and try to sleep. work is like a foreign concept to me right now
These little ones always break our hearts, as much as it hurts at least I got to experience that love
And comfort my other two boys/girls who are very attached to him too
Fuck this fucking sucks
Will escort my boy from this world with style and NOT cry in front of my mom
Those who have your babies close hug them tight
Peace
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