I started by getting really high and listening to the song above to let loose and be free. I stepped outside of myself for a full week straight. Problem people blocked. Phone turned off most all of the day. I saw the bigger picture. I realized how insignificant I was, and how significant the loss was to me. I made a list of all the things I was thankful for, excluding the one I lost. I got really high on weed, and kept adding to the list of things I was thankful for. Clean toenails, electricity, clean water, the hummingbird outside my window, my dog who loved me unconditionally. I watched a bunch of sci Fi movies based on the future and searched for new songs that I'd never heard & inspired me and I listened to them over and over again as I continued to get high.
After a few days of being out there I found my base again. I listened to the song above. I built myself back from ground up. I listened to this song and built myself back up over & over again as I continued to get high. It grounded me. I built my power back up. I stayed outside for 8 hours or more, walked, explored the beach, interacted with people and remembered who I was as an individual. As the darkness came and it got colder I started appreciating more the comfort of the home I lived in. I forced myself to brush my teeth 3 times a day, to shower first thing in the morning & sometimes take a bath at night too. Four years later and it's helped me regenerate. All my best to you.