The gods created insects in their own image
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Flooded with insectoid imagery (K admin. rectally)
Substances: GHB, Ketamine, 2C-B
At about 10:00, I took 25 mg of 2C-B orally and my wife took 10 mg. I had eaten a short while before, nonetheless, I began feeling the effects within 15 minutes. Everything seemed to come into focus and my sense of being took on a very warm aspect. During the buildup, I listened to a mixset of very loud, very powerful psychedelic trance, and was quite impressed by 2C-B's audio-enhancing effects. The trip continued gaining momentum for what I would approximate to be 2 hours. I also took some GHB during the buildup, which synergized very nicely. At this level, the visuals were reminiscent of LSD as I viewed the carpet, but there were also sparkling filaments of every color flying around of a sort that I had never encountered before. The trails or "tracers" were among the nicest and most pronounced of any I have ever seen, they seemed to light up with neon colors and float away. Tactile sensations were also, as promised in what I had read, greatly enhanced. My wife and I were abstaining from sex due to a recent addition to the family, otherwise I would have investigated the tactile-enhancing aspect of this substance further. Kind of like a brighter, hotter-burning version of its longer-lasting sibling, DOB.
At about 3 or 4 hours into it a lightbulb came on over my head. I had read how 2C-B can make the Ketamine state easier to assimilate upon return to "normal" reality. I figured since this could be my once-in-a-lifetime shot at trying 2C-B, I may as well engage in some serious psychonautics while I had the opportunity. I dissolved 60mg of K in a ml or so of water, and administered with a rectal syringe. I could see within minutes that I was in for a Krazy ride.
I was talking to my wife. None of the words that were escaping my mouth had been formulated in my mind before saying them, and I was only vaguely aware of what I might have been saying. I remember saying something along the lines of "I have no idea how I am able to stand here and communicate with you right now". My consciousness was a spinning vortex made up of swirling neon cloud-glaxies and random thoughts/phrases. The 2C-B was keeping my pieces together and providing an amazing lightshow as K space crept upon me more and more. At about 30 minutes after taking the Ketamine, I laid down on the couch and finally blasted off.
My perceptual field was flooded with insectoid imagery. I experienced the form and unity of the Hive Mind. The Hive and the Anthilll as intelligent lifeforms. A giant mantis-looking thing holding the planet Earth in its grasp (literally!). Neon honeycomb-looking things. One Mind. Gaian Mind. Hive Mind. A lot of the same imagery and thoughts that I had received on high-dose psilocybin encounters were present. I saw myself as the ant, and was well aware of this strange alien power's ability to crush me as such. I was informed that as long as my intentions were good and I was acting on my True Will, I had nothing to fear from these obviously superior lifeforms. On the visual level, everything was flowing and electric. Neon tracers persisted for what seemed like over 10 seconds and floated off into obscureness. I saw the synchronicity in my life reaching a climactic point in the not-so-distant future, at the will of this anthill/hive-type Universal Mind. On an emotional level, the combination of K and 2C-B was extremely opening, and helped me to view my life in a new light- as a series of interacting mechanisms and external forces beyond my control which all culminate to make things happen and to make "me" behave in a certain manner. I looked forward to some events which I knew were coming up in my life with great disdain, knowing that I had fucked up greatly to cause things to be where they currently were. The harsh and verbally abusive way I had been raised as a child follows me to this day, fully interweaved with my being and the way I handle things. Looking at "me" from the outside, witnessing the various mechanisms which make up "me", I realized I have some serious issues I have yet to resolve. The overall message, as has been the message I have received on other psychedelics, is that if I wish to better myself and free myself of the demons that haunt me, I need to quiet my mind and seek clarity through meditation.
The K wore off about an hour after taking it and I rode out the comedown chilling on the futon with my wife, taking bonghits of some rather tasty nug to smooth the landing. While the 2C-B helped to retain much of the K experience, I feel there was still a signifigant portion that I was unable to bring back (secrets humankind was not meant to know, I suppose!). It is unfortunate that these two casualties of the "War on Drugs" are not more widely available, for I feel if more people examined this particular combination, humanities collective unconscious would reap signifigant benefits. I am thankful for this new insight into my own life and the Universe as a whole, and I hope some day I am fortunate enough to experience this particular combo again.
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