Grapesoda

I've had 5 surgeries on my shoulders and elbows in the last few years, I was disabled in 2000 and in 2015.

in 2015 I had my left shoulder rebuilt from the ground up. 2.5 hour surgery, I was told this is considered major surgery. I was told at that time I had a 70% chance of the repair being effective. and could NEVER be repaired again, the MRI's confirmed that my shoulder has not done well. the repair did not hold.

ligaments ripped down to just a few strands holding the ligaments attached the shoulder, both right and left shoulders now. the left bicep ripped again and holding, but not that great of shape.... bone spurs and cyst in both shoulder joints.... so I'm going for my 3rd disability lol!!!

here's what's weird though.... the DR just can't believe I will not accept any opioids or pain killers. oh fuck yeah it hurts... no pain pills. I still got all the fucking pills from 2015 lol!!!


dearest bronco guy, I just know you are going to be thrilled by the apparent missy I am in. that's because you are such low quality human being or low quality bot???? does your hairdresser know for sure???

Like that weird german guy. even in his pic he looks like a crybaby... I can't even remember his nic... oh ya.. thommey or what fuck ever...lol!!….

so I just wanted make sure you found out

King Mark

From wackin it so much. Get well soon.

Grapesoda

that's one theory I suppose... what did you do to get stupid? it ain't never going to be well you dumb fucker.... lol!!!

Spunky

Sounds familiar.I also had major surgery to both shoulder and elbow.Ligament was stapled back to the bone,torn rotator cuff,cyst drained. Elbow deburred twice.basically they go in and chisel off the rough parts every 7 years.
The fun never ends when you get old

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kane

Did they give you any idea what the next course of action/treatment is? It must be frustrating as hell. I have had some health issues the last few years and it is frustrating as hell. I can't imagine having something going on and on since 2000.

Hopefully there are better days ahead.

Grapesoda

I'm not doing any more surgeries... gonna play it out and see how it goes...

EddyTheDog

You can send the spare meds to me - I don't have a pain threshold - I cry for days if I stub my toe...

Let's hope it improves at least to the point you can function again.....

King Mark

Grapesoda

no this has been going on since the early 90's and I was only disabled the for first time in 2000. I'm not frustrated at all about this situation. I have a spiritual solution for issues like this.

I see my thinking and or mind as a separate but equal part to 'the real world' in other words, 2 worlds, 2 units that function together. and I keep them separated like wild dogs that hate the fuck out of each other...

in other word I don't let issues from the real world affect my spiritual center... the shoulders work ,all the stuff is just stuff my body goes though. my mind and spirt are separate and I do not let them get affected by my, what would be considered struggles by others. I see and experience only 'things I do during the day with my body' what's the big fucking deal, right?

and the other side of that is keeping my spirit in line with the universe and NOT allowing any weird thinking or bad ideas to upset my day to day reality life...

so I keep real life and my mind apart like 2 gun powered pit bulls...

Grapesoda

dude I'm a natural red head and an introvert lol!!! I one of the most sensitive types to pain there is

Grapesoda

nice attempt at being clever, missed the mark though...

2MuchMark

Hey dude - good for you for avoiding the opioids. Those drugs are a crisis up here just as they are in the US and if you can avoid taking them thats great.

I have a strange question for you. Can you tell me what it was like getting an MRI? I know you will think its strange, but I always wanted to have one. I hope I never need one, but I just want one. To me, MRI machines are so cutting-edge science they seem like science fiction.

"The human body is mostly water. Water molecules (H2O) contain hydrogen nuclei (protons), which become aligned in a magnetic field. An MRI scanner applies a very strong magnetic field (about 0.2 to 3 teslas, or roughly a thousand times the strength of a typical fridge magnet), which aligns the proton "spins."

The scanner also produces a radio frequency current that creates a varying magnetic field. The protons absorb the energy from the magnetic field and flip their spins.". From https://www.livescience.com/39074-what-is-an-mri.html

Like.. .WOW!... This freaks me the hell out, but in a good way. I love science.

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King Mark

Nah, it got u. And it wasn't even clever, you're just slow. It's ok tho.

kane

Damn. It sounds like you have been through a lot with that. Sorry to hear it, but it's good you have a way of dealing with it and keep a good outlook. A lot of people would have just gotten lost in depression and painkillers.

Grapesoda

its better now than before.... they lay you on a table and slide you into a tube head first. there is no room to move... then you hear bangs and clicks while they do the runs. a typical mri might be 12 runs, each might be for 15 min to 4 - 5 min.. they need to move the angles to get a 3d view... even on valium I moved a few times nothing to do with freaking out, just from pain in my shoulders. they had to start the run over.... if you are in pain or claustrophobic the tube really sucks

Grapesoda

my daughter tells me I have an intense weird life thing is though, this is why I know what I know... the things that upset you guys... but I'm making serious fucking payments on it

edit, in 2015 I had 27 years clean in NA. when I went to weed form opiates against dr's advice I gave up my time in NA... to be honest I only smoke weed and nothing else and to my mind I'll have 30 years in dec.. no big deal my mind drifted from NA philosophy 10 years ago....

remember I'm an INTJ. I am inner directed and I think about stuff for years before I make a decision. sometimes years and years. that's why we believe what we figure out. unless you run around with one of us you don't really notice the odd mechanisms that guide us.

I'm told there are a few INTJ'S here which makes perfect sense. most of us have cold personalities in person although I have affected a jovial good old boy that I run around inside of. we are very very calculating people. 98% of people I can look in the eye and say 'I don't think like you', because I am not a normal person. and when people spend large amounts of time with me they get uncomfortable, I get uncomfortable. everybody is unhappy. we just ain't normal and normal prefers to be around normal... because normal is as normal does, I don't do normal. I never have.

Grapesoda

uh.. ? okay....

Grapesoda

I do function.. *shrugs*

Rochard

I've been lucky that with all of the crazy shit I've done I've never been hurt before.

Stay away from the opioids. Bad shit.

Get better soon.

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Grapesoda

thanks, but it ain't getting better it only can get worse

dyna mo

nothing wrong with pain pills if you haven't had issues with them before.

I've had 4 elbow surgeries over the past year, and used them with no issue.

no sense in being in pain.

Grapesoda

it's not that for me, it's the condition of my spirt when I use opiates, I started using opioids when I was 12. I'm not sure you will understand however that matters little to me. not that I do not value you or your opinion, just that this is non negotiable issue for me.

when I use opiates I feel entitled and expect people to do what I want.... not like a fucking shot caller or anything.. I find the edges of what I consider to be creepy behaviors slippin into my mind. I can't really tolerate any thing like that. any amount of it.... when I did use the pills for about 6 months, I felt horrible all the time in my spirt, drained and awkward. every morning it was like coming out from under water and then I had to take the fucking pills and start it up again I hated every fucking day of that shit . I took the pills for 1day after the surgery. life is like a box of fucking chocolates right? you get what you fucking get....

dyna mo

stopped reading when I got to the "not sure you'll understand and i don't care" part.

i'm just a webmaster, you're the deep thinker.

Busty2

I had what's known as a three Tesla MRI recently, apparently it's the latest and greatest, at least here in the third world of Maine. I was in the machine for about 2 hours and they took many hundreds of images. They also put a heavy ceramic plate on the area they needed to scan for whatever reason. This was my forth MRI and not my favorite thing to do. The dye injection they give you makes you feel like you have pissed yourself and the noise on this last visit was intense to say the least. I agree its cool science but dont wish it on yourself if you don't need it !

Grapesoda

its good to know who you are, and I was correct in my assessment. were you able to read this is not reflection on you or your opinion. this is non negotiable. of did you choose to pass over that in your rush to your webmastery ways and decide to be a fuckin cunt instead?

Grapesoda

dyna mo

only a spiritual person of your level would call me a cunt for what i posted.

Grapesoda

nope. nice try, I posted that not as a statement about my spirituality, I posted that about your passive aggresse behavior to me. in my view cunts are passive aggressive hence my confusion about you, I apologize. now you going to call me a racist you fuckin bitch?

dyna mo

what the fuck.

do us all a favor and take some fucking pain pills.

motherfucker.

King Mark

Here goes the dynato hurricane mo again... Melt down in 3... 2...

dyna mo

there goes the fired tube uploader fake muz race bating racist again.

Tasty1

wouldn't pain killers give the muscles and bones more time to relax so they heal better?

BaldBastard

My doctor prescribes me 6 painkillers a day, take two.. 3 times daily
and gives me a year supply when I visit.

6 x 365 / 2190 tablets.

the thing is I only use 4 a year, and that's cos I go to the dentist twice a year, and pop two before I go.

I still take the painkillers though, wify and her bleeding friends like them ;P

-- An uncle of mine had a hip replacement and refused to go under general anaesthetic, just a local one... fucking old farmers.

Grapesoda

depends, I ripped a ligament while shooting one day. both the model and myself heard the ligament snap. did not feel a thing due to pain pills....

with just weed I move carefully and I'm always aware of my condition, and sometimes I need to stop and regroup too...

thing is I have had this pain for 20 years in various degrees. just part of my life. right now my right shoulder feels a if someone has banged a 2x4 down on me, and another guy has driven a stake into the back of my shoulder.

as a bass player I have a hard time playing F and first position. my right arm has no strength. I am unable to hold my arm up to play... *shrugs*

as far as healing goes I think peace of mind is more essential than lack of feeling in your body.. thoughts?

Grapesoda

oh hell ya on the dentist, that's the only reason I keep the pills lol!!! your poor fuckin uncle... oh man.. I used to get my teeth drilled with no pain killer because I was so afraid of the needle.

Grapesoda

and you leave my mother out of this

_Richard_

id say get well soon, but..

you check out any spas/saunas? place with the russian, turkish and japanese shit would go a long way for that sort of deal i think

Mr Pheer

I've torn both rotator cuffs, broke my right ankle three times, broke my left knee, shattered ribs, broke my eye socket, broke my collar bone, broke my fingers, bruised a lung and 1/3rd of my brain, lacerated spleen and liver, spine and both hips are degenerating.

I won't take opiods either. Don't drink, won't smoke anything.

But, CBD oil has changed my life. The kind with no THC in it, because I don't do that getting high bullshit. I buy the bottle with 2500mg. Just a few drops under my tongue a couple times a day. Made a huge difference, plus now I sleep like a baby.

MFCT

Grape I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you find something that will ease your pain. Like Pheer said, CBD oil may work wonders in helping you cope with your condition.

You have a brilliant mind. You'd be a great programmer if you aren't one already. Bringing any weird, twisted idea to life and seeing it work flawlessly is a type of satisfaction I can't compare to anything else.

Take care to not let word circulate in your community that you have opioids at your residence. In your condition I don't think you could fight off a drug-crazed home invader. At least consider having a gun handy.

May you stay safe, stay brilliant, and find comfort from your pain.

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Grapesoda

I had a Jaquez where I was at before really helped for sure... even took a few cold Jaquez's

Grapesoda

Im gonna check it out, thanks...

bronco67

So sad how you turn an appeal for sympathy into an attack on me. Good luck with the busted-ass shoulders...couldn't happen to a better person.

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Grapesoda

thank you so much.. I live on a 2800 ft hill with 2 gates, at the end of a 2 mile private dirt road. I think the fucking pills are safe... if I shot a gun, I have a 1911, up there in the santa monica forest or what ever it is... there would be cops and rangers all over in 30 minutes... and thank you.


I tried to learn programing 20 years ago, I'm dyslectic, in my day if you were dyslectic they slapped the fuck out of you and made you sit in the closet… lol.. I was learning to write script and no matter how careful and slow I went I could not get the script to run.

Something stupid like which streets in NYC run east and west... and since I'm dyslectic I sat there for about 30 min carefully typing the lesson over and fucking over. I was learning from a book, I finally called the up the publishers, I think is was an MS deal, book and software... they told the book had a typo... that was the end of my coding efforts… lol!!


as an INTJ let me assure I have been thinking about this stuff for well over 50 years and yes writing this book is the most interesting for sure... GFY helps me focus my thoughts because I must defend myself and ideas.... and deal with 'hecklers' it's the perfect place...

I had never considered god anything other than an intricate part of reality with the default set to positive available for use though positive thinking. read some napoleon hill. what I've done is use success philosophy to better understand my relationship with god.

just a different use for an already proven tools. this is how I reached the decisions I have about the universe or reality. it's completely obvious to me that humans are a 2 piece unit. biological and virtual. the biological is based on Newtonian physics while the virtual is governed by some other OS. I no longer let those 2 areas of my life hang out unsupervised.

and this as well, when I have an issue in my life I have an immediate suspect to the root cause of my problems... there are only 2 places to look, i's always lol!!

Grapesoda

I kinda feel bad for you and I have no idea what your talking about... oh yeah I remember

Bladewire

You are a great guy and didn't deserve that nasty reply. Sorry he did that to you. My empathy for him is waning

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So I'm not the only one that thought I pissed myself?

2MuchMark

That sounds pretty scary. I don't think the sound would scary me as I would just be consumed with how impressive the machine is and what it is doing. However I think being locked-in so I couldn't move my head would make me lose it.

Anyway, Sorry you are going through this and I hope you get better, and hopefully without the use of opioids.


Had not stopped reading, you would have realized what he said was not about you.


It's incredible isn't it?

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Grapesoda

thank you mark, yup no pills for me... just weed and carefulness have a good day sir... oh BTW the valium is to relax, they will give you a script for 1

dyna mo

piece of shit fuckwad post.

Grapesoda